I wonder..

I saw something very distubing at Twitter.

sigh, when will you move on, girl? Start accepting the fact that everything between you and him has ended. Like really over. He already found someone else and he's happy (I hope). Its not as if you're not pretty, you are. I bet there's a lot of guys are crazy for you. I really don't understand you, really.

I'm a girl myself and I don't understand you. what's this? Ive been through heartbreaks and all too. I've given all my heart to someone before and all i got was scattered pieces of heart thrown back at me as if those were confetti. Yes, I cried for months but that's it. In the end I picked up myself back and move on with life. REDHA dengan ketentuan Ilahi. Accepting with an open heart that this is God's plans for me. The relationship between you and him WAS over long ago, very long ago. You had your chance to be with him and you screwed up. So now what? you wanna screw mine's with him? pfft!

I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Im pissed, confused, dolorous. Promise is a very big word. Once you promise somebody and you break it, they gonna bring up the matter ALWAYS. They will make you feel guilty about it.

Hais, I don't know what promises you made to her but I'm sure its the same as the promises you made to me. And you've broken your promises to her. What about mine? I know I'm not your first. And I bet whatever happy and sad feelings Im having, she had before. She experienced everything I'm going through with you. She must have felt so happy when you made her like the only girl in the world. I'm just sad that whatever I do with/for you is the first time I ever do for a guy but..hais. The apology video, the video collage, the presents & those lil surprises. You can ask my friends. I never did such things before and they're surprised when I did those for you. I did this because I wanna make you feel special, but I don't feel special by you. I don't want to be the girl thats gonna like you and then leave. maybe I'm just hoping too much, don't I?

my lil sunshine

So let's talk about my Sunday, shall we?

Went for ze boy's Pantun final competition at Woodlands with Rahim and Hazirah. He surprised me with his attire; baju kurung with samping and tanjak. Hais.. dah boleh kahwin dah. heh. So watched how his school and others berpantun and performances. Alhamdulillah, they clinched 3rd. Good enough. I'm proud of him very much. Ended at 2pm and we went off. While waiting for him to change out, I went to Starbucks and asked my brother for free drink. haha, muka tak malu but thats the advantage of having a brother there. I can get it for free. Ze boy then introduced him to his AJC girl friends. HE said they were very excited to meet me. Hah, I don't know for what reason. Ystd, I was hoping they don't expect a hawtstuff or pretty chick. Met the girls and yeah, they're naiseee people. He's lucky to have friends like them. What's funny was, one of them said, "You're really very pretty!" with a slang when she's even prettier than me. Another was my junior's sister who is also his friend. She texted him, "She's very pretty. Good job, Good job!" I guess the good job refers to him picking the right girl? yes? no? hais, this beauty is just temporary. God only give it for a while and he can take it back anytime. :')

Had lunch together at Banquet and spent quality time together. weeeee~ Finally after so long. Sent me till Khatib and off he went home. Sucha sweetheart but most of the time, he's irritating. :P

There's badminton practice tomorrow at Ustaz Fazli's place.
Yay, time to burn some fats and caloties~
Oh cos I'm taking part in a badminton competition representing the mosque this Saturday, 17 March. ;)
looking forward to tomorrow!

wonderful day

Today is a very very wonderful day to me. yay. Firstly, I woke up at about 12pm plus cos I slept late the day before. Woke up, bathed and went Suntec City for the IT show. Wow, it was only the first day and the whole place was packed like sardines. COnsidering its a weekday, the crowd was relatively huge. So walked around and survey for my laptop for Poly. There's just way too many laptops, from one brand to another. However, I got my thoughts straight; I want a slim and light laptop, not those bulky ones. Cos I wouldn't want to carry them around to school. So mostly, those were about $1,000+++. Finally, my eye caught on the Samsung laptop. Its less than a thousand and it fit my criteria. So yay! I bought the laptop and ride back home. So currently, I'm using the new laptop to blog. Alhamdulillah, that my parents and brothers are willing to sponsor and I have to only fork out $100. hehe..

Then chillax the whole day at home. Installing softwares to the new laptop. After Isyak, head down to Northpoint to meet Safirah and Sijia to get Atiqa's birthday preps. So coincidently, ze boy was also at NP having his dinner with his sister. And we finally MET(!!!!) after 12 days!! Told the girls I'm gonna meet him for awhile and they can go ahead first. Hais... I was just too jubilant and can't contain my excitement when I saw him. That explains why I was smiling gleefully all the time. We both were so eager to see other. He's forever cute la. We had a lil tiffs a few days back so he tried to make me understand the situation and stuff. Im really grateful to have him. Only God knows how much I miss this cheeky boy. :)

HE sent me off and I met ze girls. HAH, they actually lost their way to Atiqa's house. Settled down at some block and called the birthday girl down. I hope Atiqa likes the surprise, cakes, cards & present. HAAPY 17TH, ATIQA!! :D spammed polaroids pictures, jokes and laughters, then we went off. Reached home about 11.20pm. Blessed to spent the day with loved ones. heeeee~

I can't sleep yet. hais. Plus, I'm waiting for the boy to reply my whatsapp.
Bet he's asleep while doing his work again. ish, awak awak..
Nevermind, prolly he's very tired. His pantun competition is taking a toll on him.
The finals is this Sunday. Hopefully, I can make it with the rest. Bawak satu kampong to support him.


So awak, if you're reading this, hasng on there ok. Its gonna end soon. Do your very best. You always have my support *wink.
"I can't find any lover sweeter than you. And precious than you. All my life, I pray for someone like you. And I pray to God that I finally found you."

Blithe

Hi hi.

So I've not been updating much due to busy preparing for lil Izzan 2nd birthday party. Hais, this lil nephew of mine is forever so cute. No doubt, he will grow up and become handsome boy. So cheeky and knotty. If Im his age, I already fall for Ilhan and Izzan.

So, everything about the party was SMURF. I dressed up in blue dress borrowed from Syahira as my dresses are very limited.. Hais. So the whole place was decorated with balloons and Smurfy items. Super cute la please. There's a banner as well. I became the balloin scupture lady with Ainul. I think we can join forces and open up a booth already. Hahahah. Izzan's birthday cake was extremely cute. A Smurf House. This lil kid was all eggcited for his birthday.

Checked in the chalet on Friday and checked out today. Phew! tired.

Slept the whole day. Watched Patah Seribu movie. Then, Yusry & Lisa wedding doc. Now, xmen movie on TV.

Im kinda upset that I can't get jobs easily while my other friends got it so easily. Its just eff wasting my time travelling down for a mere 2-3mins filling up a form and being told the job is full when they say theres still vacancies. Maybe just not my rezeki. Hais...

Tomorrow is ur birthday. Hais.. Im contemplating if i should wish you. However, Im afraid you judge my good intention and i might just ruin ur day since you dislike me very very very much. Till now, I don't know what you have against me. Its sad, heartwrenching to know Ive done so much for you and you don't know, and you dislike me a lot still. You didn't wished me on my birthday, I got it cos its Olvls. Well many else didn't cos my birthday wasn't important. Hais, I don't want to take revenge.. Im very selfish if I still wish you when you alrdy dislike me. It will just ruin ur special day right? I guess the best i can do now is pray for the bezt for you. May Allah bless you with lots of happiness. And if he meant to be with you, he will be for you. You don't have to fight with me for him.

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Date with Ming Hui

Yesterday, I met Ming Hui at LJS to have lunch together as well as catch up on each other's life. Hais, I miss her so badly. :( So, I had a great time with her, as always. Then we headed to library to borrow storybooks. As we walked around NP, we saw the Cotton On sale. Being shopaholics, we decided to check it out and ended up buying the things. That's when we bumped into Atiqa & Safirah. Totally unexpected. So yeah, in the end, all of us bought something from the CO sale. Met the boy awhile since he was on the way home. Sent him off and went home. Although it was a short day, I really enjoyed myself with good companies around. ^^

Today, I went for my medical checkup at SATA Woodlands with Asheera. So we met at 10am & off we go. Hais, this girl is forever crazy over her One Direction. Reached SATA and the queue was not that long, quite moderate. Registered and off the 1st station, Xray. Haaa, its the most awkward thing ever. It was my first time doing xray so was all excited. hahah. Had to change and put on the robe. Next was Eye check, followed by height and weight. Hais, I think I stopped growing already & I didn't gain any weight despite eating and eating and eating a lot. So, here I am standing at 159cm tall and weigh 48.1kg. Then, urine test. haaa. Had to force my urine out. Kinda awkward to see each other's urine, ya know. Erm.. krik krik. Next, blood pressure and lastly, consultation. Asheera had to do an injection & she only knew abt it just now. Its hilarious how this best friend of mine is all terrified. Met Jiayi, Donavan, Hidayat & Syabil at the clinic. Familiar faces! Finally at 1.15pm, we finished our medical check-up. A heavy burden off my shoulder. phew... Ate lunch, walked around CWP then head home.

Alhamdulillah, Ustazah said I can khatam Al-Quran already. weeee~
But, it doesn't stop there. I should make it a point to read the Al-Quran regularly despite the busy schedule. Insyallah, :)

Lil Izzan's 2nd birthday party chalet is from Friday to Sunday.
Theme: Smurf
I should dress up as Smurfette. heh. I guess I'll be the balloon lady since I already master balloon sculpture. Its easy afterall.
I don't know why but I just have A THING with balloons. Its just so... LOVELY.
I want my balloons for my birthday, prease. Red heart shaped balloon (Y)
hais, k lagi lama. nobody cares. #foreveralone

All my life

All my life, I pray for someone like you & I pray that you do love me too.
You turned my life around and you pick me up when I was down.
When you smile, my face glows.